wins. loses. work

It’s 5:19am.
Listening to some OG regional songs + a playlist shared by Riten.
Here’s the track on repeat: Spotify link.

I don’t know man what’s happening.

I can’t sleep at night.
When I do sleep, it’s from 7am to 12–1pm.
Not good. I know. But still.

Work is getting done.
Clients are getting results.
Touch wood. Arnav’s happy.

What more do I need?

Work – good.
Family – yeah, good only.
Friends – barely, but good. Counting Rohan, Shubh, Shishir, and Sem right now. Hehe.
Girlfriend – hehe, yes. A lot to say here. Maybe next blog. For sure next blog.

But having a real life?
Is this what you call life?

My daily routine looks like this:
Wake up → work → finish tasks → hit the gym → grab a coffee or Diet Coke → back to work.
Music playing almost the entire time.

Oh and before that—music.
Bro, I lost my earphones, and this cutie literally came in clutch and donated / lent / gifted me the new OnePlus Buds 4.
Insane for that price, honestly.

Anyway.

Coming back.
My ADHD ass forgot what I was writing.

Okay sooo…

My daily routine (continued).
Is this what you call life?

I’m not happy.
I’m not sad.
I feel empty.

Sometimes I randomly cry in the middle of the night.
Sometimes I get this sudden motivation to work.

I don’t know what’s happening.

This is living alone.

The best part?
My work isn’t affected.
And if it is affected, they’re not telling me.
(Okay wait, they always teach me a lesson in a new way lololol.)

So yeah…
This is the current state of my life.

Nothing cool.
Nothing awesome.

Okay wait—one thing.
My finances are kinda f*cked because my dad wanted to buy my sister gold earrings that she’s not going to wear for the next decade.

So yeah.
That’s it.

New year incoming.
No resolutions.

If you really wanted a resolution, you’d start today lol. Simple.

Mine is:

Hit the gym
Get a little more fit
Run more
Earn more

More than this, if baba allows.

Bye.

Good morning or good night?
You take whatever you want.