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tl;dr: 22. small gathering of 150 thanks to dad. little things matter. krishna das is the adhd ka ilaaj. (probably.) what a day.

i turned 22 on the 16th of june. what a day. ykw, what a day.

no comments. it was busy. running to hospital for puja, coming back, a small (yes SMALL) gathering of 150 people, thanks to my dad. that was it.

we think a lot about what’s happening around us. all the noise. the big stuff. but we always forget the little things. big things get seen. little things don’t.

this 22 was good. why? because whatever i expected, happened. or whatever i didn’t expect just came in and became the benchmark for next bday. i don’t complicate my bday. another day, another life, work, move on.

so yea. little things. they matter a lot. someone gifting you something you need > something you want. (except a porsche or bmw, hehehe.) you get my point.

honestly, i haven’t been writing for the last few weeks. ngl, stressed af. wrong sleep timings, wrong food, the whole loop. i had so much to write and just… didn’t.

so what’s been happening? cool things. fingers crossed. and i shipped this cutie karacookie for myself, because previously unemployed people think things, idk, lyrics, something, and i needed to learn. (don’t ask. or do. it’s on the page.)

back to expectations. (adhd ftw.) i don’t like to keep them. i don’t get excited a lot. two instances from this month.

first: arnav shared we’re closing this huge billion dollar client. i was like ok. nice. lets gooo. underwhelming response, ik, skip. honestly imo it was the better response. if god wanted something else, and the other thing had happened instead, i would’ve been torn apart.

second: i was teaching someone how to make decks. okay, i love making decks. designing, presenting, full critique mode, all of it. so we’re 30% in and due to some obvious problems this person had to leave, without even informing. and i had asked this person an unlimited number of times, “are you free? if busy we do tomo!!”, but no no no. and then this. see, i told you i don’t get excited. (except for a bmw or porsche.) i was so chidu for the next 2 days, i can’t even explain. that thing kept playing in my head. ahh. which is ew.

anyway. so yea.

arnav sent me a waffle cake. tasted it when it came. then he ordered me something hell-lot-of-costly and recently launched and i can’t even thank him nicely because i can’t really digest it.

i got multiple gifts. yes. (nazar emoji.)

one aunty gifted me a set of cute bags so i can travel.

the best part of celebrating your bday with your parents is, you suck, you don’t have friends, at least your parents have friends, hehehe, they come and win for you. lol. i may hype you all up all year celebrating bday here and there but eod, i will be with my parents only. just this day.

on a serious note, my grandparents are very unwell. bought injections worth ~50k in 2 days. legit insane. ik. she will recover from it. but yea. that’s also been going on.

also: please listen to krishna das this week. he is just wow. what a recco. you may have heard his kashi vishwanath ganga. i suggest you listen to all of it. i mean, wow factor. i think my adhd ka ilaaj is this. or slipknot blasting. (sorry wrong comparison and all, sorry, but pls.)

bye bye.

i have too much to share. too much to do. and yes. later? for sure.